page | 1 | 2 | 3 |           Our Story In early January of 2007, I found out that I was pregnant. My husband and I were very happy, since we had wanted to have a baby and a sibling for our son who was four years old at the time.   My pregnancy started with some difficulties – I had a lot of recurring colds, an ear infection and was often quite tired, but by the second trimester I started feeling much better. Everything was progressing well, and at one of the sonograms I learned that we were having a girl, which was very exciting, especially for me, since I really wanted a daughter. So, things were going my way, so to speak, and even though I was very grateful to God for all the arrangements, looking back, I probably took them for granted to some degree, as I thought it was only natural that I would have a healthy baby. I am not at all saying that we should be fearful or thinking about possible negative outcomes, but we should all be aware that only God is in control – as in a phrase I heard a long time ago: human efforts and God’s power. At the end of the third trimester, ten days before the due date, I went to see my doctor for our weekly appointment. He couldn’t find the baby’s heartbeat. That night I had a C-section done, and our baby was stillborn.   I was shocked. I could never have imagined this happening to me. At the same time, I always felt and knew that everything was in God’s hands, and absolutely everything was in accordance with His Will. Still, that first day was very difficult. The next night, while still in the hospital, I spoke to a staff member. We had a relatively short conversation, but it was extremely profound for me. He helped me see that what had occurred had come from God’s great love, and that He had protected us from a possibly more painful experience. As he was talking to me, I cried non-stop, as everything he said felt very true in my heart and made perfect sense. I didn’t have questions like “why” or “why me” – somehow everything was clear in my heart. Personal Experiences page | 1 | 2 | 3 |